This morning I have had a good time worshipping and meditating on the Lord. Its been good. But a thought just came to mind here.....have we as believers ever trully thought about why king David was a man after God's own heart? So many people today in the body struggle with being accepted as sons and daughters of the living King Jesus Christ, fully adopted into His kingdom. You know I am one who struggles here and there with condemnation and guilt just as much as anyone else does. I am human. We go through cycles. David did as well. Look at his life when he was running from king saul. His cries were deep and troubling to say the least. He was a man yelling out "search me oh God!". He suffered from guilt even when he didnt do anything. Sometimes guilt leads us to repentance and that is a good thing. I look at Davids life and all the mess ups this man did... adultery, murder, coveting, rebellion and the list goes on and on. But yet David was a man after God's heart. This is absolutely mind blowing. How much grace and mercy and love the Father had for His child! David is an heir to the throne forever. Talk about love thats never ending. David continued a life of repentance because he knew his sin was against the Lord. He begged for His presence to not depart from him. Yes he had to pay for some of the bad descisions he made, but above all of that, his most valued posession was the presence of the lord. He always repented even though sometimes he had to be brought to repentance by others when he sinned. He was a man who knew he had faults and asked the Lord to deal with him and cleanse him. What an incredible testimony this man is. His life of messing up but yet he was also living a life of repentance and love for our Lord. I am just so amazed by the never ending love from our Father in heaven. It is just so abundant that it consumes me at how He could ever love a mess up such as me. This totally blows my mind. How could we ever deserve such love? We cant but yet He desires to give it to us and just pour it out to overflowing. This is almost too much for my heart to take. My heart feals like its going to burst everywhere when I think about the love that started for me way before the cross and even before the beggining of creation. To think that He loved me so much He planned for me to be born. He knew I would worship and love Him. How amazing is His great love! So for those who struggle with acceptance from the lord, look at the life of David. We sometimes think "yah but that was David...I'm not worthy of that". You need to quiet yourself before the Lord and let Him love on you. Have we ever even considered we are a man or women after God's own heart and we dont even know it? Do we desire to live in His presence even though we are full of weeknesses just as king David was? Do we desire to live a life of repentance? Do we desire to please the Lord? This is a life of a person after the heart of our great Lord.
